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I don't want to move anymore (I previously planned to move to Chicago or England). I've moved almost every year of my life. All I know how to do is say goodbye & start over. But I don't want that anymore. I want to stay in one place. I want to have a family & kids that'll grow up in one town. I want to have friends that have been my friends for years. I want stability. So I'm starting over. I'm no longer pursuing a crazy life. I'm listening to my heart. And my heart needs calm. I'm erasing every word from my book and starting fresh on page  one.

Drumline

This December, I'm auditioning for Carolina Gold Drum & Bugle Corps on bass drum. I know my skills are rusty so I put up ads around the music building about how I was looking for a tutor, and not only did I find one, he was the 5th bass for Phantom Regiment & 1st bass for Carolina Gold. So yeah, I really lucked out there & I'm really really looking forward to our lessons (which will begin after fall break). In pep band, we had our 3rd rehearsal (after like 3 months) & we got to wear the drums. I'm on 5th bass & let me tell you: it is significantly heavier than the 1st bass I marched for winter. This morning the band played at a charity event for 2 hours, so I got to wear it for primarily the whole time. I thought it was going to be hell, but I warmed up to it. I actually started enjoying having it on. It's weird. It's like your drum becomes a part of you & you feel naked without it on. Here, enjoy pictures of Marshall with costumed people who were also at the charity event.

Purple Smoothies & Bling Rings

As a part of the Student Government Association, we participate in community events. On Saturday, the campus clubs/organizations "took over" the university center. It was from 10pm-2am and it consisted of going from place to place, learning about clubs & playing games. It was pretty awesome. Afterwards, they had us all congregate in the ballroom & we lightly partied before they gave away prizes via raffle tickets. I didn't win anything sadly, but the night wasn't over just yet! My friend Caitlyn was out of town for the weekend (actually she just got back) so I stayed in her room with our friend Della. The whole morning & afternoon consisted of watching Netflix, the Hunger Games, and trying to figure out how to order Japanese food online. I kind of got off topic.....oops. Well, since I'm in SGA, I signed up to help with a fraternity during the take over event. We all crammed into a tiny room, played cards & sang karaoke to 90s & early 2000s R&B music. But anyway, after my shift was over, I went & got Della (who stayed in the room) & told her to throw her clothes on & come. We found our friend Marshall in one of the rooms & stuck with him the rest of the night, and during the raffle we met up with a guy in pep band who's name is J. After the take over ended, we all walked the streets of Greensboro. Marshall peed on some innocent grass, we tried to order Wendy's from the drive thru though we didn't have a car, went to a gas station & got some disgusting purple smoothies, then crashed at Marshall's dorm & watched the Bling Ring & fangirled over Emma Watson's American accent. It was a brilliant night, and Marshall told me more about ROTC (which he's apparently in). I might join later....we'll see.

Time to Make a Change

Maybe I'm deciding to mature, maybe not. I've just noticed that throughout life, I've had a lot of great opportunities that I just took for granted. So from now on, I'm not going to take them for granted anymore. I'm going to do nothing less than my best at everything because when I do, life will become limitless. And I like the sound of a limitless life. I'm not going to let go of the past because the past is also who I am. I'm going to learn to live & succeed with it. I'm just going to stop myself from trying to recreate it. I will stop trying to connect with people from my past because they're living in their present, and I shouldn't make them go backwards. Life is supposed to be moving forwards right? Or maybe zigzagged. Who knows. All I know is that I'm tired. Of a lot of things. There's nothing else to do besides take a nap & wake up leaving those things behind me in the bed. I feel like that should be worded better, but I'm not an English major so who cares. (English majors. English majors care.)